Micro Entrepreneurism, Simple Living & Art
big goals, big plans… which gets me big hows, and then little hows.
i have the big ideas and the big whys, but they are big, massive, enormous, and they are abstract. and them being there is good. its a step in the right direction. it motivates me and gives me purpose and reason. but the abstractness makes me inefficient. if my why is loose and flexible, my actions are then loose and flexible. i am moving forward. i am growing, and changing, and getting better, but i lack the plan for all of that that would enable me to take it all to the next level. there is nothing wrong perse with where im at, just a lot of potential sitting out there for where i want to go. and maybe part of me is scared to make it concrete. not in the daily here and now basis, but in the bigger picture. locking in the bigger picture is intimidating. and i think most intimidating because its possible. bizarre.
am i in fact afraid of success on some level?