The Hawk-Mo Hotwire

Micro Entrepreneurism, Simple Living & Art

a bit here, a bit there, always something

PART I

the things i focus on are the things that happen. and there are a lot of things that happen- some are just day to day things, others are things that keep the day to days going, and others still aren’t so much repetitive circles but directional flows (that of course, then fit into a circle- but an ever expanding one). some circles repeat themselves in the same exact footsteps. some shift a little one direction or the other, but close enough to the first that its relationship to it is apparent. and then the great ones spiral outward from a single moment. that moment isn’t the beginning, because tracing the beginning of anything is nearly impossible. every moment has circumstances that created it, and those circumstances were created by other moments and decisions and circumstances. that circle in particular will never end- for you, for me, for the next person, for our worlds, THE world. nothing but our minds, bodies, and physical beings live and die with us. we play a part in the greater circle.

these circles interact with each other on many levels. they can grow, expanding out from the same center, creating a solid foundation built on what came before. they can form concentric circles, existing around the same point, but jumping from one stage to the next rather then smoothly progressing. they can intersect at any point on the circumference. they can overlap. one center can form on the edge of another. they can evolve, forming a spiral path that never exactly repeats, and instead builds, challenges, forever striving for the next lap. one circle can follow another, like stepping stones, steadily moving, a directional progression. and again, somehow all of these circles that form around and with and through and for all parts of you, your life and your world.

all of this isn’t exactly new to me, but i exist in a constant state of trying to improve my understanding. and the realization about the magnitude of the involvement of circles and connections has been creeping up one me for a long time and kind of hit me square in the face a couple of months ago. it was a great day.

PART II

as the circles concept develops with my understanding of the world in which i live i have begun to realize my “epiphany moments” in which a noticeable shift occurred in both the way in which my circles were being constructed and how they were interacting with themselves and others (in simple terms i guess this would also be called a life changing event, but at the time i was unaware).

and this was one such moment:
i must remember the first time it occurred to me that my own mind is in control of everything- it happened at Northeastern. not in the middle of a pete conversation, but in reaction to one. im pretty sure i literally remember walking down the street, past Resmail, towards Huntington, and i remember it being an epiphany i couldn’t quite grasp. a little too huge. too revolutionary. too much against everything society had taught me in the world. yes, the moments of clarity exist, but they are such the minority in comparison to what the majority of people would rather believe- which is that they aren’t in control, we are all just along for the ride, its someone elses fault- always, they can’t change anything, there is everything to be unhappy about and nothing to be happy about, its weird to be happy and think each new day is a fabulous new adventure, why get excited? its just another day. how can you NOT be excited?!? have you really taken the time to consider the opportunities available to you? its overwhelming, and so its easier to say they don’t exist for you, because thats far easier then admitting that you’re scared. no one wants to admit it, but we all are. the difference is that some of us use that fear to push us. fear is the reason to dance. listen below the surface. get underneath and really listen and you will hear a beat you can’t help but dance to. your whole body will smile. your mind is focused. every ounce of yourself, physically and mentally, is wrapped up in the music. there actually isn’t anything else.

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About mudly

Mud is main blog writer extraordinaire, picture guru, and the garden and adventure instigator. She loves to cook, but doesn’t much like following a recipe. She also loves typewriters, the color turquoise, and wearing tie dye with stripes. And she dorks out on permies.com while dreaming up and planning her next garden.

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